Here's an alternative mindset I've been practicing whenever I find myself fearfully scrambling to figure it all out RIGHT NOW:
"I don't know how it's going to happen. I don't know how it's all going to work. I don't know how I'm going to get there. But I'm super excited to find out. "
This isn't the first time you didn't know the way. Yet, somehow you still managed to arrive. This time is no different. Stay open to being guided. Believe you will be shown. Rely on your intuition. Follow the path as it appears. Keep the vision. Take the steps. Trust the process.
I will never ever join you in your hopelessness.
I will never ever believe that things are as helpless as you may temporarily believe.
I will always orient you toward solution.
I will always indicate what we must NOW do.
I will never harp on your “wrong” turns.
I will only ever guide you back in the “right” direction.
You can choose to line up with me to replenish your sense of hope and renew your sense of purpose or you can choose to continue having the same old negative and depleting conversations with other scared, disconnected people.
That mind of yours - that “thinking cap” you wear - can be plugged into whatever thought form you choose. A mob-mentality or predominant popular opinion may be a challenge to avoid but YOUR point of focus, YOUR place of attention is always YOUR choice.
Step away from the others for a second.
Put down your devices and their constant stream of information.
Connect to me first, before anything or anyone else. Seek me out at the center of your being. Regularly. Daily. Whenever you need.
I am always here for you.
So is peace.
So is calm.
So many inspired ideas.
So many ways to assist, to be a positive contribution to the world in which you live.
I hold all the answers to your questions.
I possess the maps to all your desired destinations.
And I will always be your safe space of regeneration and renewal, no matter the chaos that surrounds.
- The Source Within/Your Inner Divinity
Old goal: to be happy all the time regardless of circumstances.
New goal: to be present and patient with whatever arises within me, to practice self-care over self-rejection, to no longer shame myself for any ugly or unpleasant thoughts and emotions, to not force a state of being that does not feel authentic or true, to sit with what is and to listen.
Old goal: happiness
New goal: freedom
These petals fell off some flowers sitting in a nearby vase. While rearranging them into a pretty picture, I had this thought come through: Things are never as awful or as hopeless as you tell yourself they are. Difficult? Yes. Challenging? Yes. Requiring you to sit with sadness, discomfort, regret, and/or loneliness? Yes. Asking you to release your need to control everything? Yes!!! But hopeless? If you are still breathing, the answer is no.
There's always another way to achieve the essence of what you are seeking, another angle to approach from, another purpose to serve. There's always something new on its way- something just on the horizon- that you are not yet able to fully see. Trust that it's good and it will be. Trust that you are moving towards what you desire to experience (and how you desire to feel) more and more each day. Trust and then let your petals fall where they will.
He “broke up” with me about 3 years ago. On the street. In front of a Señor Fish, 2 blocks from my house. I write “broke up” using quotes because we were never anything official during our summer-long involvement even though I loved him very deeply throughout our whole acquaintance, and perhaps well before we met.
I had believed that I was the only woman in his life, even though his hesitance in going anywhere outside either of our homes as well as his tendency to disappear for several days at a time, indicated otherwise. The connection was unbelievably strong, a soul-mating to a degree I hadn’t yet experienced. Sure, I may have only been focusing on his potential and ignoring his actions. But I loved him, there was so much magic and synchronicity and psychic-ness to the connection - how could this not be “the real thing?”
And yet, there I was, standing on the sidewalk, very much aware that he had made his choice and it wasn’t me; he was getting back together with his ex-girlfriend and they were going to start a family.
I walked to my house, tears streaming down my face, completely in shock over what was transpiring. It didn’t make any sense. My heart and soul had led me to him. How could it not work out? Why would I have brought myself such pain? How could this be happening to me?
As I approached my front door, I was met by nearly 50 crickets waiting for me on the porch. I say 50 but it could easily have been 100. The sheer number of them hopping and crawling around shook me out of my despair. Crickets always tend to bring blessings, an indicator of positive expansion and taking big leaps, especially in consciousness. Was this fantastic magical display supposed to comfort me, letting me know that somehow this awful heartache was a blessing?
When you’re in it, it’s so hard to see that what is happening is for your highest good. Looking back though, that is most definitely the case. While some soulmates are long-term companions, some are merely temporary catalysts to our next phase of self-expansion; opening us up to more self-love and freedom, assisting us in aligning with the authentic vibration of our soul.
In this way, what appears to be a heartbreak is actually just the precursor to a heart-breakthrough.
When we look at things from this angle, with enough space and distance and time, we can actually say it and mean it: Thank you, thank you, for not giving me what I thought I wanted. Because what I have received instead is so much better. Thank you for giving me the gift of myself.
With every inconvenience that my ego fights like a spoiled brat, my higher self responds with a "Ooooh but think about all we are going to gain. Imagine what this is forcing us to learn and to become. I wonder what role this is preparing us for." After varied amounts of whining and eye rolling, I usually surrender and trust my higher self.
This week, my sanctuary of a house is getting tented for termites. Yayyy fun. I fought the extermination and prayed and wished it away since it felt so violating and intrusive. It's my home! Yet, inevitably there was nothing I could do. Regardless of how sacred I make my house, how clean I keep it, or how safe and comfortable of a space I create, it's still just a building. It's still just a thing. Home is different. Home is a feeling. It's with me wherever I go. Home is the people that I love. Home is where my family is. And my dog. And let's be honest- my crystals and my decks.
So can I fly yet?... No? Not yet? Even though you gave me these wings and showed me where you want me to go and what you want me to do?... Um ok. No big. I'll just hang here in my old crawling spot... What? No, I was kidding! You ofcourse know best! I'm cool here. Juuuuust tell me when. I can totally wait...
Surrender doesn't mean giving UP. It doesn't mean giving IN. It means giving WAY to the greater intelligence within your heart, your own inner light. It means connecting with your highest, truest, and freest self - that constant, eternal, unwavering part of your being that never changes, judges, or abandons you. It means listening to what it has to say and letting it lead you down the path, trusting that you are moving in the right direction, even if your current circumstances indicate otherwise. Your passions are always on purpose.
In the midst of a life-altering shift, it's hard to believe that things are actually happening for us and that we are right where we need to be. As we free-fall into uncertainty, it can be difficult to trust where and even if we'll ever land.
If you find yourself floating in such a situation of confusion, if you're flying headfirst into foreign and unfamiliar territory, be as gentle and kind with yourself as you can throughout this process of transition. Know that at some point soon, you'll once again find yourself on solid ground. Remember that this is just a moment in the series of moments you will experience in a lifetime. It may very well be a pivotal point in your story, one which will undoubtably contribute to the wealth of knowledge, courage, and experience you will one day possess, as it helps you grow into the person you will one day become.
For now, remember that you are not alone in this struggle; help and support are much closer than you may believe. Find your footing beneath what is temporary. Connect to the timeless part of you. And let your future self guide you forward one step at a time.
Having a desire is one thing. Becoming the version of yourself that is capable of achieving/attracting/receiving that desire is another. It is all about what we are being. It is all about matching the energy of our intended outcome. And then ofcourse, believing in our ability to co-create with all that is. Letting go into the unfathomable infinity of possible and potential paths to its manifestation. And trusting the process without needing to predict how or where out of fear. It is all in our becoming. It is all in our strength of belief. It is all in our surrender to this magic.
“The Quantum Field responds not to what we want. It responds to who we are being. Since every potential in the universe is a wave of probability that has an electromagnetic field and is energetic in nature, it makes sense that our thoughts and feelings are no exception. The thoughts we think send an electrical signal out into the field. The feelings we generate magnetically draw events back to us. Together, how we think and how we feel produces a state of being, which generates an electromagnetic signature that influences every atom in our world. This should prompt us to ask, “what am I broadcasting (consciously or unconsciously) on a daily basis?” - Dr. Joe Dispenza
Worried/Fearful Ego: “What can I know about this upcoming shift in my life?”
Higher/Inner Guidance: “Get quiet. Be patient. All will arrive in time. Details don’t need to be arranged beforehand. All will be filled in accordingly, all in the natural unfolding of time and events. Some days you can feel “blah.” And it is more than ok. To be wherever you are is complete freedom. To not fear is the highest human pursuit. To surrender gracefully to the love ever-present. To stand on mountaintops unafraid of the fall. To trust that the landing, all landings, will be secure and arranged for you. Let go and follow my lead. Something good is always coming.”
Earlier today I was giving myself a hard time over something I had/have no control over. Mid-frustration and despair, I looked up at the sky and saw this rainbow. I laughed at such a wonderfully timed sign, reminding me to let go and trust that I'm right where I need to be. Only later did I realize how perfectly poetic this location was.
There's always a rainbow right above and beyond the barbed wire of our self-imposed imprisonment. We just need to expand our field of vision a bit in order to see it.
There was a beautiful plant that lived on my front steps. It was something I had inherited from the previous tenant but over the past few years I had adopted it and treated it as my own. It was in a bright blue pot which was the perfect compliment to the various succulents planted within it, as the colors were all quite vibrant including a particularly gorgeous bright red. I would charge my crystals in its soil during full moons. Even though I have little knowledge about plants or gardening, I really enjoyed watching it grow. It was the most eye pleasing spot on an otherwise uninteresting porch. It made me happy to see it.
This morning I came outside to find that this plant was gone. My first thought was "who the hell steals a plant?!" Maybe it was some intoxicated asshole thinking he or she was funny. Maybe it was someone who believes they have so little in their life that they need to take from others. And that sounds like a miserable existence. That sounds like punishment enough.
And while I'm sad that this beautiful object is gone, in truth it was never mine in the first place. Maybe nothing ever really is. I just got to enjoy it for awhile and give it some love. And in return, it gave me a little morning lesson in non-attachment. And forgiveness. So thank you, plant. I really hope your new "owner" treats you kindly.
I'm so tired of my anxieties about the future. I'm so exhausted by my need to figure it all out right now. Ughhh. Right??
I keep hearing "how much can you trust me? That is how much I can reward you."
Sooo ok. Here goes:
Today I put my trust in divine timing. I hand over all my worries and fears. I throw my hands up in a stance of peaceful surrender. I lovingly let go of my doubt. I open up to the perspective that all that happens to me, happens for me. That all is good and all is necessary. All is purposeful. I trust you, life. I trust where I am now and I trust where I am headed. I trust I am supported and will be guided every step of the way. I trust that I am always right where I need to be.