The time between crying "what was I thinking??" and laughing "what was I thinking!?!" gets shorter in length when you actually let yourself cry, laugh, and recognize that you were just doing the best you could as the person you were at that time.
We are constantly changing and growing in awareness. It's a lifelong process of education and evolution that we can choose to fight or embrace. Either way, it means that wherever you happen to be- it's temporary. And more than that, it means that whoever you happen to be- you are enough - just as you are right now.