*** Another version of this letter was edited and altered to fit a popular online publication. You can find it here but I greatly prefer the piece below. ***
I’m sorry you’re swimming in the infested waters of egoic fear. It’s murky and uncomfortably cold in there, huh? Well, there’s clearly a reason you took the dive. Found it yet? Ok, cool - you did or you didn’t. Either way, feel however you’re feeling. Cry, scream, thrash around a bit. Let it out. But now? It’s time for me to pull you out of the water. Because while this place may be seductive and socially acceptable, it will ultimately leave you drowning in its contagious filth.
So, here goes. Before you catch a full-on case of self-consciousness, neediness, lack, comparison, desperation, and the I-have-to-figure-it-all-out-right-NOW’s -
Everything… is just… energy.
Unfocus your eyes a bit. See this energy. You can see it again! Fun, right?
You know how in school they teach you about certain planets that experienced atmospheric changes over time? And how over the course of light-years (or whatever) some planets completely transformed and/or exploded?
Well… that is what is happening on Earth. Right now! It always has been! Forever!
Because well, duh, Earth is a planet. In a solar system. In a unfathomably extensive UNIVERSE.
And you know how those other planets experienced transformation?
It took place on an energetic level.
And you know how Earth is experiencing transformation?
On an energetic level.
Now this is the bit to circle/highlight/heart-shaped Post-it note to the forefront of your mind:
YOU, ERIKA, ARE A PART OF THAT ENERGY.
You are a small part of what will change, of what actually DOES the changing for an entire planet.
You are a worker bee, one of millions and billions and trillions of worker bees.
You are a molecule, a sparkle, a unique electric expression of star-stuff.
That is what you are.
That is all you are.
That is why you are here.
You are elements and minerals and lots of science-y words you don’t really know (because you spent more time chain-smoking at the Athenian diner than in class - it’s cool, I forgive you!) but the words themselves aren’t as important as the essence of what I’m reminding you of here.
You and everyone you know (and don’t know) are here BECAUSE OF and FOR the evolution of Earth. Whether or not you want to be - you are a part of this transformation.
It’s happening WITH your life.
It’s happening WITH every single person’s life!
The push and pull between lightness and dark?
The energetic exchanges between beings?
The struggles, fights, wars that are going on between egos and souls?
YOUR OWN PERSONAL GROWTH??
That is the stuff that is shaking up and transforming this whole fucking planet.
Right now I know what you’re thinking, Erika.
“Um, ok. That’s depressing… and full of holes - you’re not a scientist and you’re talking about stuff you don’t have a degree in, and maybe you should edit this down a bit because it sounds kinda repetitive but, whatever. More importantly, what you’re saying is that all of the things I care and worry about in my life don’t actually matter then?”
No! They DO matter! But not the way you think they do.
They matter but they’re not ALL that matters.
These things you value are temporary.
These things you value are on purpose.
And these things, like YOU, are only limited by your own thinking, judgements, and beliefs.
My aim in reminding you of this greater truth isn’t so you feel insignificant.
It’s quite the opposite.
My goal in reminding you of this is so you can expand your vision a bit to see that…
You are significant.
You are important.
You have a purpose, jobs to do, things and people to believe in and connect with, something that you are supposed to be giving to the world.
And as you mentioned, there are things you want. Things your soul deeply wants. They are the things you’ve always desired. Really, truly desired. Not just the things your parents or some celebrity or the cool kids told you that you should want. The things that make YOU want to jump up and down with the unfiltered excitement of a toddler or a puppy with a brand new toy.
And those things you want?
They want you too!
You wouldn’t be here.
Those things you want are WHY you’re here.
So, back to all your worries and anxieties. All your insecurities and your plans of overcompensating for them? All your fears of missing out and the subsequent manipulative chess games where you attempt to outsmart God?
They’re so utterly gross and exhausting, right?
And ugh. When you’re all wrapped up in them it feels like there’s no other way - no other version - it feels like this is just REALITY. This is just the WAY IT IS.
But! That is NOT the truth.
It only seems like this is your reality because you’re choosing it as so.
Your reality is what you choose to see.
Open your eyes.
You’ve just been steeping in a stiflingly stale paradigm-pool. Tiptoe out and towel off your tatas.
Because you are part of a big ethereal picture.
Because this big ethereal picture is not only about you, after all.
And every time you say “Ok, fine, I’m in! I give up! I surrender! I will relax FINALLY! I will allow for change, I will let go, I will be the me that feels the best, the truest, the freest, the happiest. Ahhhh I can’t do all this hard work anymore!!!”
Every time you reach that point, you are not only helping yourself. You are helping EVERYTHING and EVERYONE, EVERYWHERE.
So, I know you’re probably wondering what you should do now, right?
Of course you are. You adorable little star-child, you.
Here are some alternatives to skinny-dipping off the low-vibe coast:
And then always (yes, there IS more!):
Do all of this for yourself… but also do it for, like… the good of the whole fucking WORLD, you know?
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